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[september.27.2007.9:40pm]


"the gift and the curse..."
-jay-z

the time is here again.
when i begin to have those moments to myself
where i stop the motion of time around me
and i begin to contemplate my existence in
my here and now.

and here i am,
drifting off into space while
everyone around me
is making noise
that knows no end.

and i am having trouble.
trouble with deciphering my feelings,
my wants,
and to choose whether
i should protect
or succumb to such a crush.

but i dont know.
thoughts are swirling in and out.
and this is the curse of
which i was born with:
the gift of the Aquarius,
one who ponders the thought process of
pondering


and i haveyet to come
to a conclusion.






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